Didn't we talk about this already?

You guys!

It was pointed out to me today that I have not been listening to my directions to write.

I've been hiding behind the fact that I wrote my story, but I can't post it yet, because I'm getting it edited.

I'm using that as a crutch, that I don't have to write, because the ball isn't in my court right now.

This really isn't okay.

How would I, as a parent, respond to my children who acted this way?

Not well I"m sure.

Why should God be any different?

Well, because he is the most loving, forgiving parent there is, but because he is sovereign he has made sure I know that I have been  in the wrong. However, he hasn't done it in a way to make me feel bad...he did it through a OBS sister, and her own ministry on writing. Nothing she said or did was directed at me, she didn't even know I'd be watching. God did. He knew I'd be there and he gave her the words to say to get to me. To get my attention.

I am here Lord. Use me, show me, your path for me. PLEASE!

Y'all...will you head over to my facebook page and leave a comment about what you would like me to write about? I'm struggling with topics. It would probably be easier to come up with them if my whole heart was in this writing thing, and it was something I wanted to do.

Don't get my wrong, I want to do it, because it is what The Lord wants from me. However, it is very hard for my imperfect, sinful by nature, human self to want to do it. I keep hearing satan tell me lies. Like: "you suck as a writer" " you shouldn't write, english was your worst class", "do you even know how to spell?" "you don't know where to put punctuation!" and the biggie "nobody cares about what you have to say"

I know someone out there cares about what I have to say, God has given me this task, and he cares.

So I'm reaching out to my loyal readers...help me with topics please?!

Signing off
#warriorprincessKJ

Life Verse

Good evening readers!
I'm working on trying to find my life verse.
The verse that speaks to my heart, that I can turn to in times of need. I've never had one but it was a Bible Study Skill a few weeks back over at #TheMendedHeart Study with Proverbs 31 Online Bible Studies.

So I figured I'd give it a try.

Only, its really hard to find just one verse that speaks to me.

It was suggested to figure out my needs and passions, and go from there.
Currently I'm needing direction from God. Direction as in where to go, but also how to get there. How to do what he wants from me. How to live the calling he is calling me to.

So I started searching direction (I also used knowledge and insight) on Biblegateway.com

Proverbs 3:5-6 came up: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths."

Psalm 119:66 also came up: "Teach me good judgement and knowledge for I believe in your commandments."

A few other verses that keep coming up in my life are:
Proverbs 16:3: "Commit your work to the Lord and your plans will be established."
Psalm 46:10: "Be still, and know that I am God."
Psalm 37:5 "Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will act."
Romans 8:28 "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."

I'm really leaning to the two Proverbs verses.
I like Proverbs 3:5-6 as I am struggling with my understanding of His calling for me. I don't understand why HE would call me to write?! How is this a good idea?!  So maybe I need to just let go and lean on Him. He will set my path right.

I like Proverbs 16:3 because if I just commit to do what he wants, he will establish my plans, right?

I think I'll try out Proverbs 16:3 for the next few weeks and see what happens. Its shorter. And the only way I can commit my work to the Lord is if I lean on his understanding (from 3:5). Both end in my path being established or straightened for me.

Thanks for working through that with me dear readers.

 Do you have a life verse? Would you share it with me in the comment section?

 ~*Signing Off*~
#warriorprincessKJ

Good Morning Lovely Readers!

Do you need something to do tonight? Check out #P31OBS Bible Study Live Event! It's my favorite night of the week. It's an amazing way to see God move all across the World right on Facebook! Here is the link...https://www.facebook.com/events/366293036909725/

Let me know if you are going, I'll look for you! 

See you!

#warriorprincessKJ

Where ya been, yo?

Happy Friday Readers! How the heck are ya? Can you believe its been over a month since I last posted? Sorry about that! The days just got away from me! The end of school came and went. We went back to Ohio for a quick visit, came back to SC for a few days then headed to Minnesota for a wedding. We are now home for a few weeks before our next trip away.  

Do you remember back in May, I was doing #WalkInFaith with #P31OBS?  Do you remember I appiled to voluneeter with them? Do you remember me asking you to pray for me? ~*Drum Roll please*~ Well since then! I was accepted into a Small group leader roll with Proverbs 31 Online bible studies. I "attended" a boot camp training session, and have just finished my first week leading a group for the new study #TheMendedHeart. Readers, it has been an amazing first week. I am seeing God truly work in me. 

Wednesday's post was for Bible Study SKills (See it Here) it was about doing a word study. 

Okay wait, this story only gets better if I tell you about my day on Wednesday before I got into my study time. I've been struggling lately, with serving my family. You know, doing all the things everyday that a mom and wife has to do in order for the family to survive. All those things that go unnoticed, unappreciated; Laundry, dishes, cooking, cleaning, etc. So with this struggle I've gotten a little lax in actually doing those things, making it worse to do them, making it hard to get up some times because well I'm exhausted, and I don't want to see the messes around my house. But on Wednesday I got up, at the butt crack of dawn, alright it wasn't that early but still I could have stayed in bed because B was home and he can handle things with A if he needs to and E was still sleeping. But I didn't, I got up to help B get things ready to take A to hockey camp. Packed A's lunch, made A's breakfast, etc. Well, after doing the stuff I needed to, I came upstairs and noticed A had not made his bed, so I told B to have him do that if there was time. Well, this basically meant the world was ending, A was so royally upset that I made him make his bed and pick up his clothes off the floor, that he went on to swearing and complaining about ME for over 40 minutes. Basically, I ruined his life. 

B gets home from dropping A off and asks me what happened while he was in the garage packing A's hockey bag, he goes on to explain how upset A really was and asks me for the lowdown.The day goes on, after Lunch I choose to spend E's nap time doing the word study skill suggest in the #P31OBS blog from that day. Having never done one of these I was very excited. I got out my Strong's Concordance: 

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 I opened up to the word "Grace" and noticed that holy cow there really is alot of times that its used in the bible. (around 170!) So no I wasn't going to do that many, but I did do the 7 as suggested by the outline I was given. 

So I closed my eyes, and said a little prayer: "Lord, show me what you want me to learn today" and pointed blindly. 

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First: Define the Word Grace: 

Grace is undeserved acceptance and love received from another. This spoke to my heart that day as: they don't deserve it but love and accpet them anyway. 

The seven verses I picked out were: 

* Acts 14:26: and from there they saild to Antioch, where they had been commended to the grace of God the work that they had fulfilled. 

*James 4:16:As it is, you boast in your arrogance.  All such boasting is evil.

* 2 Corinthians 8:6: Accordingly, we urged Titus that as he had started, so he should complete among you this act of grace. 

* 1 Thessalonians 5:28: The grace of our Lord Juses Christ be with you. 

*Zechariah 4:7:Who are you, O great mountain? Before Zerubbabel you shall become a plain. And he shall bring gorward the top stone amid shouts of "Grace, Grace to it."

*Romans 11:6:But if it is by grace, it is no longer on the basis of works; otherwise grace would no longer be grace

*2 Corinthians 8:19: And not only that, but he has been appointed by the churches to travel with us as we carry out this act of grace that is being ministered by us, for the glory of the Lord himself and to show our good will. 

So after reading each verse I was to ask questions of it. Here are my notes: 

*given grace for missionary work completed. 

*God opposes the proud, gives grace to the humble

*titus-gave himself to the Lord-turn good intentions into actions

*Grace of Jesus Christ be with me-grace is beginning to end. 

*"temple" bringing shouts of Grace

*God's grace is free not given by works

*Serve others. 

What I concluded: Show grace to others by serving them, not because they earn it, but because they NEED it. God's grace is there from start to finish. 

Basically the message I got in my heart was "suck it up buttercup" and serve your family for HIM, show them the Grace of God not because they did something to earn it but because that is what HE would do. I keep praying show me them through your eyes Lord, let me love them like you do. 

It was a big eye opening day for me and, well, I loved it!

This whole week, I have really been feeling God moving in me. He is totally working on me. This study is going to be amazing, if you still want to join you can, you have time! Head over to proverbs31.org for more details, or shoot me an email. 

In Him. 

Signing Off

#WarriorPrincessKJ

My Story

So as you know...I'm doing the When Women #WalkInFaith online bible study with #P31OBS. It has been amazing. 

Last week during the Bible Study Live portion I was really moved by a question :

11. Is there an area of your life that you may struggle to BELIEVE God will get you through or provide for? For BSL Team member Melissa Chambers, it’s believing God wants to use her in any possible way. Melissa is choosing to believe God’s truth in Psalm 73:26, “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” If you are comfortable,share with us what you struggle to believe. Let’s take a moment to pray over each other’s comments so we can all dare to believe we are who God says we are!

 Here was my answer: I'm struggling with God's plan for me...I want to use my past of being raped in a way to Glorify God, but I keep questioning if it is He who wants me to use my story or if it is ME that wants to use my story. How can God really use me, a nobody?

After that event, about 5 people with #p31OBS reached out to me, It was an amazing expericnce to see God work like that. I've been able to chat with a few of them a little bit more, and they are praying for me as I try to figure out ways to share my story of how I was raped and how God is using that part of me for the better. I'm still praying, I don't know what or Where God wants to use me. 

Last night was a #twitterparty, also amazing! We were asked what was one word we would like prayed over us. I said #where, #where can I use my story, #where should my story be heard. Today while reading When Women Walk In Faith, I came across the following :

Notice that #pinkink??? AHH! I can't stand writing in my books with pen...it is so permanent. But I just knew when I read that section I had to use the pen...not the pencil sitting next to it. It had to be permanet, It had to stay. I need to pray about sharing my story, and I need to share my story. So here I am writing out my pray to My Father In Heaven, and what do you think would come on my itunes radio? "Write Your Story" by Francesca Battistelli. 

Is God showing me he is here and listening to me or what?!?! 

Over the next few days, I promise, to keep praying over my story. I am planning, if The Lord agrees, I will expand more on my history over the next few weeks. 

Would you pray with me?

Thanks,

Signing Off

#warriorprincesskj

#warriorprincessKJ

Hi!
Happy Lord's Day!
Sorry for the lack of posting again! Still trying to get settled and into a routine! 

I just wanted to explain this new hashtag I'm putting out in the world. 

I'm doing a #P31OBS (Proverbs 31 Online Bible Study) called #walkinfaith (What Happens When Women Walk in Faith, by Lysa TerKeurst) and a few weeks ago they asked us if we could hashtag ourselves what would it be. Well, at that moment I said #princesskj because I am a princess. A child of the one true King. 

Then....like minutes later....I saw a Facebook post from @nataliegrant explaining her new shirt that says, "Sometimes Warriors Wear Heels". 

At that point, I changed my hashtag to #warriorprincessKJ, because lets face it, I'm a warrior and a princess all rolled into one. I fight everyday to stay a float! To stay on the path the Lord wants me on...not to head down Satan's road. I battle daily to make sure my kid's don't find Satan's road. I fight daily for my Marriage.

I do these things by praying. Praying is the number one way we can battle Satan. Satan hates it when we pray! That is how Satan losses his grip on us, by spending time with God, our Father, who art in heaven. Amazing God. 

I'm hoping to start sharing more of what is going on in my bible study here on my page. Hopefully that will happen. I enjoy typing out my thoughts from my head and heart. However, I hate having my little one in the office with me, and lately she is all about needing her mama, which I by no means hate. :) I love it actually, won't be this way forever. 

On another note: would you all say a little prayer for me? I applied to volunteer with Proverbs 31 Online Bible Studies (#P31OBS). If you could all pray that God's will be done with my application, that would be fantastic. 

One more thing: Happy Birthday B! I love you babe!

Signing off
~*KJ*~

#warriorprincesskj